MY WORDLY JOY

Assalamualaikum, 

This one is gonna be more in depth, so you’d better be prepared to boo me, :-)

Dear love, 

Before I decided to drop some lines on my lappy tonight, I was paying attention to what you said and murmured, and looking at every single action you did. That was not all. Then you curled toward me and started cuddling and hugged me, and that was it. I was suddenly moved.  I regretted the number of times I get upset with you, but you always come and say “you’re angry” and then put your arms around my neck and start looking sad and wait for me to rub your back and kiss your cheeks.

My mind wandered way to the past, way back. It was too far I guess, and there were those “what if” questions in my head. At exactly the same moment I felt the warmth of your messy hair near my cheeks and your heavy breathing because of the flu you’re having. 

The thing is, if there had been other options that were better than the one I picked out, and also still considering you again and again on the top of the priority list, I would’ve chosen one. But there weren’t, and I’m sure about it. However, sometimes I still feel that I’m the one who should be blamed for you being like you are now, even though the logic part of my brain insists that it’s not only me who was being such a fool at that time.

Dear love, no matter what in the world has happened to us and what’s coming ahead, you are and will always be the center of my worldy joy, my love to you goes straight to the moon and back whether I am around you or not. Your name is always in my prayers since I know Allah takes care of you better than I can.