Realizing it or not, life always gives us lessons. And a lot of times without us even thinking about it, then BOOM there goes one big surprise. The funny thing is, I think I cope better when the kind if surprise I obtain is a good one. Perhaps everyone does.
When it comes to something bad, I adapt slowly. There should be a series of phases before I finally say "okay, this is now getting good." then i feel fine and needn't have to worry.
In reality, surprises are always tricky for me. I'm the kind of person who deals with systems very well. I follow instructions and would hate myself for disobeying any on purpose.
A few people have said to me that I am a very loyal person and I can be called monotonous (if it is possible and less harmful). Most of the time I take time to think before doing something, even though there are times when I rush buying stuff when I have cash in hand :)
When I accept things as God's ways to better myself, I can therefore go through another process called change(s).
I wouldn't have gotten to this phase if all those incidents hadn't happened. I wouldn't have worn this hijab if there hadn't been Allah's will.
Accepting myself and everything that's gotten me this far have truly changed some crucial things in my life, as a person and as a human being.
