A WEEK

Hey guys, it's Sunday and i have been sitting in front of the computer for nearly three hours. Time runs really rapidly when i enjoy doing it, too bad it doesn't happen when we are in the middle of a ridiculous situation.

Yesterday, i had this low level class consisting of six students; all are between the age of ten to thirteen. Two of them are extremely weak, even though they study at a pretty popular and expensive school. but now i know that doesn't mean a lot. there's also this girl. I knew it from the very start i met her that she's kinda special; you know what i am trying to say don't you. During our ten minute break time  she asked me if she could use the toilet. then i said okay. after around two minutes, she came back to class and said, "miss, how can i flush? i want to poop but i don't know where the flush is." in kids' language.

I started to panic a bit, fearing she would ask me to assist her in the toilet. She asked me to come with her, and that very moment i was showing her the flush, she pulled her shorts down! oh my lord, she's half naked. thank god she's female and not the opposite. So i said to her, "now I'm gonna wait for you outside and you had better close the door." i was saved, hahaha.. Anyways, they're quite tense but funny eventually :-)

oh yeah, almost forgot to mention this. so last week, i and hubby went to visit his mother in Bogor. We decided to go there by bike. It took us almost two hours. On the way back to Jakarta, i decided to stop by at an Acehnese restaurant we had seen the day before because they serve Roti canae. I was so excited when i was ordering it; imagining it as a super dish. It was ready less than ten minutes. but by the time i had a glimpse of it, i was like.. no it's not what i want. In my mind, roti canae is supposed to be circular and moist. What was placed on the table was more like pieces of fried dough. :(  the image next looks even better..

roti canae

I was disappointed, honestly I was. I told my hubby to finish it up. i didn't eat most of the roti canae, the lamb curry gave me a headache; probably it's because i am not allowed to eat fattening food like that. my dad died because of high blood pressure if you are wondering why..

Still i had always thought of roti canae as yummy, moist, soft, and appetizing..just like this..

yummy roti canae :)

Hey it's now ten after five, i havent done my evening prayer, such a bad girl..

I am listening to this Korean female singing group called WONDER GIRLS, I found out weeks ago that lots of my students (kids mostly) really love these Korean singers. I tried listening to a few of their songs, but what can i say.. they dance well, they don't really sing well. They are obviously pretty :) guess kids love them not for their voices but perhaps because of how they dance, they expose those girly sexy moves and they're cute as well. If you wanna know if I am one of their fans, the answer is NO! 

i am never a fan of any band or singer or personality. 

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memories

Read something this afternoon. didn't like it. thought of it as signs. felt like it was a threat. well, to me it seemed to be like a piece of threat. it kind of reminded me of the past. something that happened last february. or perhaps it was at the end of january. dont really want to recall that moment. dont feel like dragging all the pain back into my present. and now i am sensing that it'll come back.

Probably they think that i don't see anything. i can't see it but i can feel it. and when i can feel it i can absorb the pain. i was hurt back then, and even now when nothing physically has injured me, i can already sense the smell and odour of an invisible wound. hypocrite. i am or you are. Or the two of you are.

What i do know is personal matters don't really have to be publicized. When she is bored of her spouse, doesn't mean she has to communicate that to the world only to get people's sympathy. well i detest her for that; thank god i never know her. and how hypocrite she is.

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no pain no gain :-)

I start my first class at four thirty every friday, so today i decided to leave for work after one. I got a little confused about what i wanted to put on, or actually got blank about what i was able to wear :'(

After trying on one or two tops, my eyes coincidentally looked straight to a navy blue top i hadn't worn in months. in my head, i was like, there's no way im gonna fit that today, i have gained so much. but still i eventually took it out of the closet and started trying it on. you know what? it fit me! well, it didn't really feel as loose as it used to be, but it felt good, and i looked comfortable staring at the image of myself on the mirror. there was that feeling of "gladness" ^^

I cant really tell how many months it had been since the last time i went to work wearing this top. but looking back to what i have been doing these past four weeks, i understood how it could happen.

I have been enjoying my short walk going to work and coming home. Even last night, i took around fifteen to twenty minutes walking! and i was amazed i did it without complaining, I loved the sweat rushing through my neck and back. And I had that sort of achievement.

I also havent had any rice for a week, and am planning to keep on doing it. Carbohydrates suck, for me! Rice makes me fat, rice makes me gain weight, rice doesn't help me look better.

If hubby hadn't asked me to weigh myself a week ago, i wouldn't have had the willingness to do this. and i have been saying this loudly to myself "visualize, dear. Visualize yourself in all those cute outfits. You'll look good. and keep visualizing it until you see that you have lost lots of kilograms." that book has really helped me ;)

tmelania

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PRAYERS

I have always been taught to continuously pray and be grateful. I know and i am not tired of it.

In what I believe, mandatory prayers are done five times a day.

Some people around me always tell me that i am sinful whenever i do something bad, or something God doesn't allow.

Life, didn't feel and look so complicated then.

At the moment, it is getting more and more challenging.

This fear of making mistakes and committing more wrongdoings is also growing wild.

Various sayings, beliefs, opinions and thoughts, viewpoints have started to drag me slightly to a different direction.

But I don't have enough courage to walk farther from the starting line i took a long time ago.

I am still holding on to what has been my guidance all these years. And i am sure i am not going to take another turn.

Though my path has now changed. It is sort of trickery and slippery. I easily find myself become confused of what to do and not to do.

But the thing is sometimes I enjoy not doing what I am supposed to be doing; but nevertheless the fear keeps haunting me. i hate making faults; but i know it's inevitable.

dear The Mightiest, please never leave me :-)

Tmelania

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CROPCIRCLES DAN ALIEN, ADA ATAU TIDAK ADA ?

Salah satu hal yang bikin gw penasaran dan bertanya-tanya tentang dunia dan seluruh isinya serta planet-planet lain disekitarnya adalah keberadaan dan keaslian CROPCIRCLES.

Kalo gw coba mendefinisikan cropcircles itu, hhmmm apa yah? Mereka tuh pola-pola yang indah nan rumit yang tiba-tiba saja terbentuk di ladang gandum atau yang sejenis lainnya seperti itu. Terbentuknya crop circles ini dari hasil meratakan tanaman hasil panen. Dan munculnya pola2 ini biasanya cuma dalam waktu semalam!! Biasanya malem ini belum ada, besok pagi udah ada! Lihatnya harus dari ketinggian, cantiik sekali. Walaupun kadang gw jadi paranoid, karna pasti otak ini langsung menghubungkan pola'' ini sm makhluk'' asing yang hidup di planet lain. Itupun kalau memang mereka nyata adanya.

 Kalo dipikir dengan akal logis, mungkin saja manusia memang bisa, namun kan perlu waktu lama dan tingkat kreatifitas tinggi sepertinya, contohnya sekumpulan orang'' berikut yang mengaku bahwa mereka bisa bikinnya. Cek di sini. 

Namun, yang menurut gw agak aneh adalah kenyataan bahwa setelah para ilmuwan mencoba meneliti pola-pola tersebut, dari pola'' tersebut ada semacam energi radioaktif, lalu batang-batang gandum itu tak ada yang patah tapi hanya bengkok, tanamannya pun tidak rusak karna sepertinya yang membentuknya itu semacam energi.

Sebenernya fenomena ini udah ada sejak tahun 1960an. Saat itu ada seorang petani tebu yang mengatakan dia pernah melihat semacam mesin yang terlihat seperti piring melayang sekitar 30 kaki diatas sebuah rawa lalu terbang. Saat dia mengecek lokasinya, alang-alang di sekitar rawa itu sudah terbentuk menjadi sebuah pola.

Gw bingung juga kalo ditanya apa gw percaya Aliens, soalnya jauh di dalam hati sih ga mau percaya, tapi kalo liat bukti'' kaya ini gimana? Ada orang-orang yang sangat logis yang amat tidak percaya sama hal'' beginian. 

Kebanyakan cropcircles memang adanya di Eropa, paling sering sepertinya di Inggris. Sempat terpikir bahwa sebenernya pola'' itu memang buatan makhluk asing. Memang ada yang makhluk asing yang hidup di luaran sana. Apa mungkin mereka terus mengusahakan untuk berkomunikasi dengan kita? atau mungkin mereka mau bikin kita siap kalau mereka tiba-tiba berkunjung ke bumi dengan bawa banyak rombongan alien lainnya? Hiiiii seerreeem ngebayanginnya juga. Apa mungkin mereka salah satu tanda akan tahun 2012 yang katanya akan jadi hari kiamat? Iihh, musyrik dong gw kalo percaya prediksi orang.Beberapa tahun lalu, ada film yang dibintang Mel Gibson yang temanya tentang ini; judulnya Signs.SImak trailernya deh. 

Waah, panjang deh omongin ini. Kalo memang aliens itu ada kenapa juga selalu dibantah? Bisa jadi biar manusia, terlebih orang'' awam ga panik trus jadi paranoid kali yah. Gw aja, baru segini udah takut dikira gila, xp. Ah sudahlah, gw nggak punya kesimpulan untuk ini, biarlah menjadi hak dan pendapat masing'' pribadi saja. 

tmelania

 

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Early Bird Gets the Worm

Hey you all, it's Sunday and I am so in the mood of surfing the net the whole day. Woke up at 10.30 then had two pieces of toasts with my favorite blueberry jam, which was so yummy. Played a bit with Bella, our cute little puppy, watched a little tv, and got treated a Conello ice cream though I haven't even had my lunch yet! A super great start for a Sunday morning :-)

I felt sorry for waking up very late, because of that I missed my morning prayer. How stupid I was. Honestly speaking, when I have to stay over at my in-laws' house, it seems that I become far from my duties as a Muslim. Oh dear, Astaghfirullah.

Well anyways, i hope everyone is going to have a great day and stay healthy and happy always.

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Lenka - TROUBLE IS A FRIEND -

Trouble he will find you no matter where you go, oh oh

No matter if you're fast, no matter if you're slow, oh oh

The eye of the storm or the cry in the mourn, oh oh

You're fine for a while but you start to lose control

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!

Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh
And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh
He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh
So don't forget as you ease on down the road

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win, but I'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!


Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel
And how I try to make him leave, I try
Oh oh, I try!

LENKA'S TROUBLE IS A FRIEND







Eversince a friend of mine mentioned about this song, i haven't been able to stop listening to it. i guess i can spend hours playing it over and over again. Geeky perhaps, but I'm not embarrassed even if everybody knows i can hardly click the stop button on youtube when the song is being played!

To me, this song is about everyone. most people have problems in life, no matter how hard they try to avoid them. In my case, one of the problems I have often had is my weight. it's like yoyo weight, once it goes down, it goes up the next day. I didn't use to like being called chubby or being fat itself. it's so annoying when people just look at you straight in the eyes, and say "i think you've gained weight." It is so not fun, especially when that phrase is mentioned when i am in a crowd. so not nice :-(

just a few minutes ago, a girl asked if I was pregnant. i was like, no no I am not. then she, literally said, but you're so fat.

oh dear, i know that and you don't need to emphasize me being fat. let's just be realistic, I'm not overweight or obese. I could be overweight if I didnt stop eating rice , or start eating less carbs. I haven't had any rice for three days, and I wish it'll go on like this for good. reminds me of years ago when I actually didn't eat rice for like a  year and I also joined a gym and I eventually lost seven kilograms, and I looked good. All my clothes fit me very well. That's the best part of being slim :-) 

It's friday (at last), but i cant be too happy because i have got to teach again tomorrow morning, remember "it's a morning class!!" Well what the heck, life still goes on anyways. it's only a two hour class, and the students always come late, so that'll be good. i will still be able to surf through the net while waiting for those latecomers :-)

Happy weekend, enjoy this nice friday. the rain that poured down this morning really has given me that sort of relaxing- i don't wanna work-mood ^^.  yes, Jakarta is dirty, filthy i know. what can you do? you just have to deal with it. Bit it's memorable at least.

tmelania

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