It is such a lovely day to begin with. Praise Alllah the Greatest for everything He has granted us.
Although the day has come to an end in a few more hours here in Indonesia, I have still got a number of things to do today :]
I have finally made up my mind. Yesterday, I decided to just stop wasting my time on something I had spent a lot of time on. I decided to deactivate my Facebook account.
It was not because I had no more friends I could talk to. It is just that, I had come to a realization that it had been such a waste of time and energy. On Facebook, I literally sat at my desk reading through people's random statuses, photos, notes, etc.
In my head, I would compare their lives to mine, I said to myself that some people were exaggerating a little too much, I thought that some things were basically lies, and that some people had been using it way too seriously.
And a lot of times, let's not be hypocrites, comments and compliments and likes are the ones we're waiting for after posting a status and photos right? These compliments may trigger us into feeling up in the air, a bit arrogant if I can say. Why would we, especially women, love to get our pretty photos to be liked by others? what is the use of it? Do we get a higher status or paid for it? Be mindful that this is totally my personal opinion. Allah prohibits us Muslims from feeling arrogant and superior among others, and FB is one of the means of it.
There are certain things we don't need to share to public, there are certain things we better keep to ourselves.
But the greatest thing that motivated me most to delete my account was because it made me become sinful and sinful, and sometimes made me postpone or even forget to complete my tasks and chores, as a mother and as a Muslim.
Honestly, i started out with deleting images of myself before wearing hijab. then it continued to deleting a few albums that I thought were not that important to be seen by public, eventually I deleted my account. No more of this blue background thing-y, I spoke in my heart.
Months ago, I had also deleted my Twitter account. What for? It could be a way for me to boast and show off and talk bad about others, whether or not I intended to do so. Here's a good example : You're on the street and you see this woman in a red shirt and yellow pair of jeans and blue sneakers. What do you do? If a friend is next to you, you both might start giggling and talk about her, if you have nobody to talk to but your Blackberry or Smartphone is in hand, the greatest chance is that you would tweet about it.
You get what I mean??
I now have turned my head and heart to blogging only.
It has been a pleasure for me to be able to write down things I think about, and the things that suddenly cross my mind and suddenly pop out in my head.
It was not easy to do both things. I knew I wouldn't be able to stay in touch with people around me. But then I also knew that my friends and I could still send sms, call, email each other.
If they happen to find out about my blog, then it is way better. My blog is my diary. It is my good friend. I try to talk to my good friend every single day or every time I get a hunch to start writing :]
I still have something in mind though. I wish I could just ask all my Facebook friends, who happen to have pictures of me, that they would just remove me from the photos by cropping my image or removing any tags of my name.
Why? It is personal. It is about my connection with my Creator.
I hope everyone would understand that it is personal :]
Tmelania
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